Well I dont really know what to say. Ive been at college for a week and it is really difficult spiritually. Im the one always sitting in my room because I refuse to do what the other kids are doing.

College makes me miss all my friends and it makes me miss my Kansas family even more. I need them here...and thats what makes this so hard. My roomie gets here today so Im excited. Hopefully we'll have good times...

Well thats all Im going to write for now..because I dont even think people read this one anyways...LOL

Well---I need to get a lot better at doing this....YIKES...i update my xanga at least once a day---and MYSPACE Ive gotten good at updating a couple of times a week because Lindy reads it and I like here alot, so I update for her...but I always forget about this one and I dont really know alot of people who have this one...so yeah...


Anyways... like people say, when it reain, it pours.

Last Wednesday morning my best friend's family left. The plans were for them to leave the house around 2 to get on their plane that was leaving at 4...they were to go up there meet the moving truck--unpack in 2 days and then come back to get Ben who was to return on Saturday from a mission trip to Medina....well things change oh so fast.
The people who were to take care of thecats backed out last min. and one cat hasent had shots in 5 years and the other one is sick so the kennel wouldnt take them. I was working vball camp at my alumni that morning and well---i got out at 12 and we were suppose to go eat and get those goodbyes over with before they left. At the end of camp I ran out and checked my cell messages on the way. Since the animals had no place to say---they drove up there with them in the car...so I never really got to say goodbye....life stinks and Im still regretting working volleyball camp. Kevin my BF dad flew back down to get Ben and they flew back up the same day. Im glad my best friend is staying, but I still miss her family. They were my other family and I spent more time over there then at my own house. Now the people my BF is staying with live like 15 min. away and she is spending as much time with her boyfriend who is leaving for Notre Dame the 15th, totally understandable...so Ive been running around Houston like a chicken with no head----no clue what to do



And Im terified about college. I dont want to go, but yet now there isnothing for me to stay here for....so I have no clue...

Talking to Kathy on the phone as been good, but would be better if we couls have another one on one outside the Ampitheater like we did at Kadesh-----just her being there for me in that way helped calm me down so much..I cant wait til sophmore year....ACU!


I dont know---Im kinda getting what Deana said about Blues Skies and Rainbows...

Its hard writing this...bringing back all the memories..so Im gunna stop