I heard this song the other day and it is pretty much amazing to me right now... its by Brooks and Dunn and it is called, "Believe" if you want to look it up...

"Old man Wrigley lived in that white house
Down the street where i grew up
Momma used to send me over with things
We struck a freindship up
I spent a few long summers out on his old porch swing

Says he was in the war when in the navy
Lost his wife, lost his baby
Broke down and asked him one time
How ya keep from going crazy
He said I'll see my wife and son in just a little while
I asked him what he meant
He looked at me and smiled, said

(Chorus)
I raise my hands, bow my head
I'm finding more and more truth in the words written in red
They tell me that there's more to life than just what i can see
Oh i believe

Few years later i was off at college
Talkin' to mom on the phone one night
Getting all caught up on the gossip
The ins and outs of the small town life
She said oh by the way son, old man Wrigley's died.

Later on that night, i laid there thinkin' back
Thought 'bout a couple long-lost summers
I didn't know whether to cry or laugh
If there was ever anybody desevred a ticket to the other side
It'd be that sweet old man who looked me in the eye, said

(Chorus)
I raise my hands, bow my head
I'm finding more and more truth in the words written in red
They tell me that there's more to life than just what i can see

I can't quote the book
The chapter or the verse
You can't tell me it all ends
In a slow ride in a hearse
You know I'm more and more convinced
The longer that i live
Yeah, this can't be
No, this can't be
No, this can't be all there is

(Chorus)
When I raise my hands, bow my head
I'm finding more and more truth in the words written in red
They tell me that there's more to life than just what i can see
I believe
Oh, I
I believe
I believe
I believe
I believe
I believe"



And I do believe. I believe that things are going the way they are planned to be. I tried to make a concious effort to feel this way. To put all the hurt and pain of things of this past year behind me. And doing that didnt seem to work. It seemed to me to be a forceful thing when it should turn out to be something that just happens. The tears and sometimes lost feeling is still there. A lot...and it will be...I know. But I also know that people move away and things at college happened for a reason. And in everything that has happened and will happen...I will raise my hands and I will bow my head and I will continue to put my trust in my Lord and Savior to be beside me through these times and trials. I know He will be. I survived first semester with so many trials and I know in order to do that, He was standing right there over my shoulder. He had to be.


Thats all for now. I hope that you all have a Merry Christmas. Will be a kinda rough one for me---my best friend is in Kansas til the 29th and Karla is in Portland, well, forever. But Im going to stay close to my family and my friends that are here and I know it will be a fun filled Christmas. I always love when Christmas falls on a Sunday. Church on Christmas is one of the best things of all time...