Its amazing when you have a friend in the same town that knows EXACTLY how you feel about life. And is going through them at the same time. With some of the same people. And to me, it is even more awesome that I have a friend in Abilene like that who loves putting her feelings into music. Its one of my favorite feelings in the world. Sitting in Anna's car and having her turn a song and say, "It's our lives, fool. It's our lives...."






"When I Go Down"

I'll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
The very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I'm powerless
To dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
So many things that could've been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I've learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
Clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
Into a place where
Peace can search me out and find
That I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away
The hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
The secret to find an end to this
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me
Then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
Yet you love me
And that consumes me
And I'll stand up again
And do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
As I exhale I hear your voice
And I answer you, though I hardly make a noise
And from my lips the words I choose to say
Seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
Because I love you
Oh God, I love you
And life is now worth living
If only because of you
And when they say that I'm dead and gone
It won't be further from the truth

When I go down
I lift my eyes to you
I won't look very far
Cause you'll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again
To lift me up again

Sometimes taking the road less traveled makes you realize all you have been missing. This year, I have taken my road less traveled. And it has been AH-mazing trip for me. I had gained friends and new experiences I could have never imagined. It is definitely a green road with many flowers. Im closer to my parents emotionally, even though I am 5 more hours away from them than I was last year.

Oh and I got the awesome message yesterday while I was at the dentist. It went a little something like this....

"Sarah, my love, this is Kami Coy....and I might kinda be in your town right now."

And the night followed with coffee and looonnnggggg conversations with my girl, Kams.

1. BINGO is definitely NOT just for old people.
2. I should probably be on Prozac or something when I am competitive...
3. Late night AIMS are just as wonderful when I'm at home as when I'm at school.
4. Grey's Anatomy is getting INCREDIBLY insane
5. Given the above, I still can't stop watching.
6. For some reason---I have a weird liking for the "Be a new Pussycat Doll" show.
7. Harwin is the best best best place in Houston (I got a HUGE, rolling, hard suitcase for 30 bucks)
8. If you look hard enough you can find a "back room" everywhere (eventhough I didnt buy anything)
9. Feb and March in Houston is the Rodeo.
10. Family is the most important thing in my life.
11. Wal Mart runs before going back to school are PRICELESS (well, for me...not the parents)
12. I have a new sister...
13. Pictures are definitely worth a thousand words, if not more.
14. I definitely miss my family when Im not home.
15. Pink CAN and HAS been overused
16. I never want to borrow money from my parents when I graduate (even though they would give it to me...)
17. I'm really glad Target is on the other side of Abilene from me.
18. Life is less stressful and more fun without a job.
19. I only have 11ish weeks til Portland
20. God teaches me things through the hardest and weirdest situations
21. There is no place to sleep like my 20 year old mattress, and I don't want a new one.
22. I miss my Poppa more than I thought I do.
23. Its HOT and HUMID in Houston.
24. I only have 8 weeks of school left!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...Cute

...Mmmmmm, Cake

...Baby Boy and Baby Girl


...My Favorite picture of my family


...Sisters

My brother got married this weekend.
Weird. But good.

Im just putting a few pictures here. There are more on my myspace and Facebook. Check em' out :)

Wow, um... I guess the biggest change from A&M to ACU would be sitting in a Bible class every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.

I'm pretty sure I have bite marks on my tongue...just from those 50 min a day.

I think I have a different view on stuff than 90% of this college. And the awkwardness I anticipate keeps me from asking questions in that class.

Although I feel awkward in class, I am glad that I'm thankful for my different views.
And I thank my parents for allowing me to have them. And not forcing their views on me, something that I believe many of my fellow students have taken on.

I heard the words today, "Our cries aren't heard. By anyone."

I wanted to take that girl in my arms and tell her that I am living proof that cries are definitely heard. It may take time and they may not be answered the way you want them to be, but they are definitely answered.


...just wait. It will come. It always does.