Thank you, PSP kids for making us authentic interns...forever

Kierbow is now, well, Woods? We'll have to see how that name flows, Im sure it will be great. The wedding was fun and it was definitely good to see Amy and Em and the Maxwells. The drive was forever, but not as forever as expected :)


(there are more pics on my flickr

There are really no words to express what happened in Virginia yesterday. Unfortunently, it was brought to my attention by a dear friend when I let my fingers type harsh words faster than my brain thought about them. I cannot express the grief I feel for those families and the friends of those who died. And especially, for the kids who are still there probably still living in fear for these last few weeks of school.

What do you say in a moment like this? There is nothing. Many voices are whispering, "how could God let this happen?" And Im at a Christian school, I can only imagine what is being said elsewhere.

God has reasons. Its hard to see and it is hard to watch stuff like this. We wish is didnt happen. So many people are wishing it didnt happen.

I just cant wait to go to chapel and sit there and pray for those kids and the families and friends.


Pray. Its what we can do and its what we should do.

Here I sit, in my bathroom at 8:30 in the morning, just as I do every Monday, Wednesday, Friday. I tend to give myself way to much time to get ready, when I really could sleep for 15 more minutes.


My life has just become a big routine. It isnt such a horrible thing. But last night as I laid there trying to sleep, I realized I just do the same thing every day.

Wake up, class, call momma in between classes, class, work, home to change, off to Stephanie and Anna's house to hang out and do homework, and then sometimes I make it home in time to talk to Cheronn on AIM, and finally sleep, again. EVERY day. The same thing.

Now, routine is needed for some, granted. And mostly I like my routine. But, I just realized three things are wrong with my routine.

1. I have no time set aside in my daily life set aside for God. Well, besides the jamming out in my car to Christian music on the way and on the way home from work. I really should work on that. I always struggle with God time during school. Stuff gets to busy and I still know He is there, but setting a specific time aside seems to have proved to be more difficult here than at A&M then it is here. I have more friends...and instant gratification has always been a top thing for me and being able to sit and talk and see my friends achieves that gratification. But, really, I HAVE GOT to work on that.

2. I barely even talk to Julya anymore. It isnt just me, we both just seem to be too busy to sit down and take 10 minutes to have a phone conversation. It went to every day conversations this summer and before to MAYBE talking once a month. And it has brought tension through out this year. Both of us changing so much, and I think in order to make this friendship work out in the long run, I need to make more of an effort.

3. I have found my group of friends. I like them a lot and they are there for me, but maybe I should venture out and find some new ones, too. I am living with two of my closest friends here, next year. I can't wait, but I fear this might make the situation a little more serious, so I must venture now or probably forever hold my peace.


I love the hanging out that that AIM conversation in my schedule. Those are definitely the two things that I do NOT want to change forever, if I can help it :)
Work could be changed, this full time gig just isnt making me a nice person. I only have 20 days left, though. PRAISE THE LORD! I just want a job doing something with kids or just a change of pace. Running a store is not a job for a 20 year old full time college student. Those people need to learn a lesson.


Okay, well time for class.

I miss

My Momma
My Daddy
My Brother
My Sister
My Bed
My momma's cooking
My momma's willingness to do my laundry
My living room
My Nail place
Target being right down the street


I dont know what the heck is wrong with me
I am soooooo homesick. It is the weirdest thing. I mean, I GUESS it is homesickness. I just am oh so ready to go home.
The weird thing is, nothing really is going bad for me. I just miss my family a whole bunch.
Luckily, I have great friends here who keep my occupied for most of the nights when after school and work, so Im not really thinking about it all too much. And I have a super great friend about 2400 miles away that will listen to my ranting and sad day. But I still cant wait to go home. Only 28 days. No joke. So ready.

I get to go to Amy Kierbow's wedding and Dallas with my girls in between now and home, though. So that is coool :)

Working 44 hour weeks and finals definitely, ARE NOT. But oh well.

Then first day of internship is in like 57 days (haha, thanks for insisting on the countdown Kristis. Its awesome to check on it)

K off to bible. fun fun.

Its April

And its snowing

In Abilene, TEXAS

And that makes a certain 20 year old who's name starts with a S and ends with an arah VERY VERY VERY nervous.

We shut down the store. And I almost cried on my drive back to my dorm (all 3 miles of it).

But now Im in my room and don't think I will leave, for a while.


Oh, how I wish snow and ice could be fun.

Four weeks before finals. It is definitely crunch time...YIKES

I had to take a four hour test today for teaching in Texas. Will prove to be useful, huh? Good grief, I had to have it to take education classes. And Ill have to take another one to get certified in whatever state I end up in (we all know where I HOPE to end up.)

I got a kick bootie Eater package from parents (mostly my momma, haha). Got a new DVD, candy and 20 bucks to Target...gotta love it :) And I got my payment for making my momma's good friend's jewelry. A shirt from the store I long to be a regular (White HOuse Black Market) and a $50 Visa Gift Card. GOOD GRIEF!

Totally owned my political science test this morning.

36 Days until I get to go home
65 days until my internship starts :)

Im staying here next year with two of my closest friends here---Stephanie and Sarah Elizabeth. WAY excited for next August :)


I think thats it. Greys is a re-run and that makes me sad. I need a little McDreamy.

So I saw "Reign Over Me" last night. It was a success. DEFINITELY.

But, it made me realize a few things about myself...

1. I am definitely a city girl. Watching Adam Sandler ride around NYC on his little motorized scooter tugged at my heart. Weird, I know. But with only two years left of college, real life knocks on the door of my brain daily. I know WHAT I'm going to be and I have a vague dream of WHERE I want to be. And I will work my hardest to obtain that dream location, but if it fails. I MUST end up in or near a big city. This country life in Abilene just isn't doing it for me. I long for the bright lights at midnight. For the noise of traffic. And for too many things to do in my lifetime. I want it, and I want it bad.

2. Sometimes forgetting things may not be the best thing. I mean, forgetting on purpose. Forgetting because it hurts too much to remember. There are a couple of women in my life that know all of it these days. And one is my mom :) I give you ONE guess to who the other one is. Times change, crap happens, and I learn from it. It does hurt to remember, but its good to remember the times that use to be.

Thats all. Really not an amazing blog, but I definitely recommend the movie. It is awesome.