As I sit here spilling my heart and soul out to Cheronn, I realize that life is hard.

Transferring isnt really all I hoped it would be.

And the hardest part is that most of the things that are wrong right now are my fault. I brought them upon myself.

I just wish I wasent in this town alone...


If ya'll could pray for me, that would be great.

Lets just start off with the fact that it was WONDERFUL to walk in from the Dr. and already have a message from Kaelea checking up on me. Thanks Kaelea....it was a good feeling.


Well, I woke up this morning at 9 so I could be ready for my "grandpa" to pick me up at 945 to be at the dr. at 10. I had to take someone with me so that Cheronn could be happy :) Geez, the control she has over me sometimes even from 2500 miles away.

So, after a few tears and a little bending we have a diagnosis. Luckily, surgery will not be necessary. We got it to bend probably about 10 degrees :) :) :)

I am scheduled for physical therapy for 3 times a week for the next two weeks. I am still on crutches and medications. But, I no longer have to wear a full leg brace, just a knee brace. Obviously, I am out of all physical activity for at least 2 weeks, when I will have another appointment with the real dr.

So, on my left knee, my knee cap pops so extremely out of place that it wil make my whole knee sore and stiff when it happens. It isnt tearing anything, which is wonderful, it just brings craploads of pain when it does it. My right knee cap pops out of place, but it never hurts this bad.

But, no surgery, just more working on bending. GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD NEWS!!!


PUMP, thank you for caring annd for the prayers. I really feel your thoughts down here. I really cannot wait to see you guys the next time (hopefully in January!!!!)

Well, I definitely killed me knee yesterday.
I was playing flag football and I went to grab someones flag and my knee jammed into the ground and my body went the opposite way.

I went to two doctors and they still dont know what is wrong with me. I cant bend my knee at all. It has been at least 20 hours and I still cant bend it at all. Both doctors put all their weight into it and cant get it to bend, but it hurts so much when they do it. I have been in tears/ hyperventilating.

I have an MRI scheduled for early Tuesday morning to see what is wrong with it. Hopefully it will start bending a little bit more before I go into the MRI. But, for now I have to take my pain meds and try to not feel the pain.

I want someone here with me :(

Prayers?

Inseperable, much?

What kind of "grown up" would stay up with a 19 year old until 1 AM? This one did :) And among other things this weekend, it was amazing. And basically what got me through the stress of the first weekend of pledging. Yeah, she is definitely one of my two best friends. This weekend pretty much solidified it :)

Cheronn,
Thanks for this weekend, it seriously made the world to me. You are amazing and Im glad we had this weekend to find how much more alike we REALLY are. Hey, you didnt get me that book so that I know how to deal with you :) I love yoooouuuuuu

In other funness, I got to sit in a room today while 5 talented men (Ike, Steve Maxwell, Luke, and two other guys) and Cheronn sang. It was seriously one of the top three small musical times I have been a part of. It was stinkin amazing. I have so many recordings on my phone from it too :)

Thanks for the weekend, Cheronn. You are amazing.

I dont have anything to say, so here are some cuuuutttteeeee pictures :)



Sweet Children. This is my desktop picture now....I LOVE it


Sugar Baby, the only dog I have ever had...I miss her a lot


Ohhhhhhh Tyler


Little Caiti making silly faces, precious little child


The Lowerys. Two of my favorite people. I love them :)


Oh, Cheronn, is there really anything else to say? I like her a lot :)


Me and Casey :) One of my favorite pictures.


I just got a call...I am the newest pledge of GATA!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOO



Here is me and my roommate, Jessica with the GATA sign

So, most people probably wrote this yesterday, but I was glued to the TV all day watching people's stories about their loved ones. I know I didnt know them, but if noone watches them, they will slowly drift away, and heroes do not deserve to drift away.

Walking to freshman english from volleyball, and being stopped by the booming voice of our associate principal, "Hurry to your next class, we need to make an announcement, get there now!" A weird kind of direction from Mrs Denton, the unanimosly nicest administrator.

Sitting in English class and listening to the story from Mrs Denton...as she tries to hold back the tears. Looking around the class with tears in my eyes wondering, "Who would do this?"

Watching Live TV, seeing the 2nd plane hit. Wanting my Daddy... I just wanted someone to hold me. Not being able to handle the fact that my 6 foot 5 teacher was crying her eyes out. It was real, not a joke, someone was messing with America.

In the bathroom stall, huddled on my phone, something that was definitely against the rules. Dad is taking care of his kids in class, Mom is already in a meeting. I need SOMEONE...I ran to Mrs Dentons office. There was a line to get into the front offic, probably for the phone, but I knew her well and just ran into herr office and cried. "I dont know if I know anybody in that building, my moms family is huge, I could know someone in there" Trying to keep her cool she just held onto me as I finally got in touch with my Mom who told me, she didnt think we knew anyone in there.

Walking with Mrs Denton into a deathly silent cafeteria. Wanting to eat that unhealthy, but amazing, frito pie, but after the first bite, feeling it would not stay down.

Walking into the locker room, right into the dreaded varsity coach, who tried to smile when she told us that practice had been canceclled, we were to go home and spend time with our families.

Sitting in my brother's girlfriend's car and flipping through the radio stations and finding that the only music that was on was a country station and it was American pride songs.

....Realizing that somebody messed with America....and they were going to have to pay.


I will never forget 9.11

Hey..since I am not going to pay to upload a ton of pictures on FLICKER, I uploaded pictures onto YAHOO....

so here is the link if ya'll want to look. I have to go to a volleyball game, but later this afternoon, I am going to upload more.


Picture Page

Well, since ACU's new education building is GHETTO and the internet doesnt work, I got out of my technology in teaching class an hour early. So now I am just hanging out in the library doing pointless stuff because I left all my books back in my dorm, which is 4 blocks from campus. So, I sit here in the library next to a woman who types with one finger and may, perhaps, break the keyboard with that one finger.

So, this week I know that I am DEFINITELY here at ACU. I got to where I have wanted to be for the past year. And it feels GOOD.

I went through the whole club rushes, and stuff. It was a little bit disappointing, because I thought I wanted to be in one of the two "popular-big" clubs. And when first invitations for rushes came out, I didnt get one from either one of them. After a few tears, I realized that God was just telling me that the popular choice was not the right choice for me. Deep down inside, I knew that... big group situations (over 200 girls) make me nervous, and since I didnt know anyone here during open rushes, I wasent too social at the large rushes. Then I went to the GATA rush and realized that I was acting like me. And so, my friends, GATA is the club that I will pledge. I am excited to be in a smaller club, with girls who walk up to me on campus and give me a hug and ask me about my day. In the other clubs, they barely even know the other members. I have new good friends, now...and Im excited.

I miss Portland, we all knew it would happen, and I do miss it with pretty much everything I am. I am defintitely keeping my mind open to moving there when I graduate. I have been in constant contact with my education advisor, because I like to have my life options planned out far ahead of time, and we have been talking about what I would have to do to get certified in Oregon. I am very excited, because I miss it so much.

Cheronn and I talk a lot. It makes me happy because I dont have to miss her conversations a lot. But I miss her a TOOOOONNNNNN. But Cheronn, Ike, and Kaelea come in like a week.....EXCITEMENT!!!

I got a package from Emily Wallace today. Let me tell you, friends. Mail makes me feel sooooooooo special and it can make any day 1000 times better. So here is the address, and you can use it if you want :)

Sarah Crowe
ACU Box 26599 (For regular mail)
Abilene Texas 79699

I miss Trin like nobodys buisness. My roommate thought she was my sister because I have pictures of her in my room. Yeah, I would claim her as my sister....EASY!


lovelovelovelove......

Well here are a couple of pictures of my dorm room. Its pink, I know you are suprised. I definitely like this room more than my A&M one. So another "yeah!" for ACU!





And here is a picture of the ranch that I like a lot. I will definitey be going out there a lot to study and to hang out with my "Abilene Grandparents" as they call themselves. I love the Warners :)